Wednesday, December 4, 2013

       Have you ever had that feel that combines shock, excitement, and just pure JOY? it creates electricity. it flows all through out your entire body! you can feel it tingling in your toes and all the way to making the hair on the back of your neck stand on end, in a good way, that is. it's something that you don't experience very often. and while it's happening you don't even think about that. you just stay focused on all the thoughts flying and racing through your mind, all at once. then when it's over, you realize how rare it truly is, and you are a little sad and disappointed, because you know it will be a while before you can ever experience it ever again. but then again, you're thankful that it even happened in the first place. for a second you forget how rare  and special it is and you focus solely on trying to reminisce it and feel it all over again. you try to think back to how you accessed it to begin with. but after that it doesn't even matter. you give up on finding and experiencing it again. you know that, when the time is right, you will experience it again. and the waiting will all be worth it. this happened to me just the other day. there was a certain somebody that I hadn't seen in quite some time. somebody who I really missed. someone I liked. when they walked through the door, the electricity happened. it shook me to the core. and it literally felt like my hear was "leaping for joy." it felt like it jumped from shock and happiness, and it shook everything around it. it literally made my chest ache for a split second (in a good way) when I saw that person standing at the door of the classroom. they came in, talked to the instructor, then left. then we just went back to doing what we normally do every day in class. but, no! that's not how it's supposed to be. something this amazing should not be simply dismissed like it didn't even occur. and after a while, I had to think back. for a second, I thought I had imagined it. it wouldn't be the first time, but the other times, the image and the feeling didn't feel as surreal as it did this time. after class, I search the halls all day, and never found them. I explained it to my friends (but definitely not as intently as I have here) and they told me that I make it sound so fun and enjoyable and just...amazing. but also that sometimes, it comes back to bite you in the butt! this hasn't happened (yet!). but as I said before, it's a moment you will never forget. even when you grow old, you remember these moments and try to live in them again. and remember, be patient. the waiting will always end up being worth it!!!
-AD